I feel like I did not accomplish my goal and the enemy got in the way of my heat felt prayer request to GOD.
I asked GOD for greater intimacy with HIM and instead received the most intense and painful trial of my life!!
But closeness to GOD is not one-sided filled with feelings of sweet surrender. There is another side of the cross associated with pain and suffering.
It seems GOD has chosen to share this side of divine soul with me instead of all the warm toasty feelings I had cultivated in my head.
GOD is so much smarter than I and HE sweetly set me up so that both our needs could be met!!!
You see, I long and ache for GOD’s voice period. But instead of speaking to me directly as I thought HE would instead HE speaks to my heart and urges me to HIS word 🙂
I know you have heard it said that absences makes the heart grow fonder, no where has this been more true in my desire to hear HIS voice.
Did you think that intense desire and longing was just for human to human relationships? Have you given real thought to what intimacy with GOD might be like? What does it mean to HIM and what does that translate into for you and I?
Nearness and a more instant access is what we often envision but I think GOD envisions a situation in which we must search for seek and run hard after HIM. This means that HE will place some things directly within our grasp as it pertains to HIM and other things HE will make us work hard for.
In everyday life do we not work consistently and with great effort on our dearest goals? Can you think back on something that you really desired and were willing to roll up your sleeves for and commit to for the long haul?
GOD longs for us to desire HIM more than anything else in the world!
My heart sings this week because GOD has accomplished that work in me because I do desire HIM more than anything else in the world!