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Reasons Why My Heart Sings 27 -Prayer Is The Best Armor

Psalm 12:2

New Living Translation (NLT)

Neighbors lie to each other,
speaking with flattering lips and deceitful hearts.

Has God ever met blessed you and then the greatest trail in your life as a believer came down the pike?

Back in February 2012 this is exactly what happened to me!!!!

In 2011 many of you signed up to receive my blog post as I had began a weekly log of posting reasons I am thankful and these post were dedicated to GOD!

At that point although I had my challenges I was moving along in a very comfortable and familiar place with GOD.

Not that I ever thought I could predict HIM and the way HE would choose to further my dependence upon HIM and HIM alone; but I must admit what HE next permitted to take place in my life was not something that I could have ever imagined or braced myself for.

I stopped posting under “Reasons Why My Heart Sings” for more than 8 months because I was coming out of trauma and although deeply thankful my heart was not singing ( it was crying).

This trial that Our Lord permitted shook me deeply and I briefly wondered about my very sanity as Satan challenged my perception of the limits of  my salvation! But then God helped me to began to experience HIS deep sense of grace and mercy thus I feel in the deep sea of HIS love all over again, but HIS love felt even vaster and HIS life giving water sweeter and wetter to my dehydrated  soul because it was HIM and HIM alone that breathed life back into me and I know it.

All GOD said to me just before the testing began is that my identity was about to be challenged!!!

I feel that the word challenged was a bit of an understatement but in the end it is not what I feel that matters as much as HIS truth.

Which brings me to this weeks topic…… Prayer!

I have done more praying since April of 2012 than I have in my whole life as a born again Christian.

God has has taught me more about the process of prayer this year than I could imagine.

First I want to say that prayer to GOD should be based in love and on that which is true, good and of lovely report:-)

Prayer at first glance seems such an easy and uncomplicated means of communication. And at it’s core it is simple and beautiful in its original design!

The power of prayer is truly a gift from GOD, but like all gifts we must be deeply aware of the instrument we have at our disposal.

When we pray are we responsible with this power that we are wielding?

Are we yielding our hearts to GOD and allowing HIM to direct and guide our prayers?

There are many type of prayers that we can pray.

Not that GOD is unintelligent and knows not what to do with our prayers just the way we pray them but for the sake of spiritual growth please take a stroll down this lane with me.

When in conversation with another human being  do we not let that person know when we just need someone to talk in order to bounce ideas off or to vent some of our frustrations?

Have you ever vented your frustrations and formed them into prayers to GOD about other people?

It is okay to vent to GOD but it is not okay to pray against other people.

Prayer is a sacred form of communication between us and a Holy GOD!

We are made in HIS image and likeness but one major difference between us and HIM is  that HE has never had a relationship with sin and you and I are recovering from ( being sanctified) step by step on a daily basis from the effects sin has had on us. This means that our perceptions can misfires on occasions about people, places and situations.

We should always take the high road, not just on how we speak to people face to face but even in prayer.

When tough words of truth need to be spoken to another they should be done so under the direction of the Holy Spirit and submerged in HIS love!

Here are some other points that are helpful in all communication; even in prayer our conversation should glorify GOD first and foremost, then we should esteem others above ourselves, thirdly lets ask GOD to forgive us of our sins ( because even when we miss them they are present) fourthly we need to ask GOD to give us HIS supernatural ability to love others so that we can forgive them when they hurt us (either on purpose or by mistake). We all have weaknesses and lets remember to ask GOD to keep those from being exploited by those that do not love HIM or us. Lets be big boys and girls and take our medicine from GOD when necessary ( meaning being rebuked ) as a point of great honor because only true sons and daughters are disciplined by their loving Heavenly Father! Lastly, learning to pray that the Will of The Father be done in our lives keeps us from yielding unto the spirit of witchcraft and trying to  use prayer as a means of forcing our will upon others!

Lord, I am thankful that you have created a hotline from earth to Heaven in which your people can speak with you. Where we would be without this method of communication with you I do not wish to know. Lord, you are not interested in hearing us slander each other verbally and disguising it as communication with you! Deliver us from using prayer as a means of evil speaking!!!! In Jesus name we pray AMEN.

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Reasons Why My Heart Sings-25

I am thankful this week because I was able to drive myself to bible study even in the face of deception, threats and some near sleep episodes while driving.

You see, I have been under heavy fire by the enemy since promising GOD all but I am still standing for our Lord and Savior!

Now enjoy the short devotional below!

“Don’t burn out; keep yourselves fueled and aflame. Be alert servants of the Master, cheerfully expectant. Don’t quit in hard times; pray all the harder. Help needy Christians; be inventive in hospitality.” Romans 12:12 MSG Bible.

To all my fellow warriors and saints remember the battle is not yours but it belongs to the Lord!

Preparing oneself for ministry. Well actually I should say in God’s preparation to send us into ministry is it’s time to put cute and fluffy things aside.

I have not been hindered because I realize that the timing for all things belong to the LORD!

I have a question are you ready to live for our LORD?

Or is you motivation to help people along the way.

There is nothing innately bad about loving your fellow man but it is not the same as living for our Lord.

Here are some of the pro’s and con’s to both sides.

Most live life solely for themselves so they would benefit by having thoughts for the needs and concerns for others.

Actually we all benefit when we learn to live a life directed by the Holy Spirit.

This is not an either or place to be drafted from.

But the question is motive.

What is your and mine motive for the things we do? Are we seeking admiration? Friends or perhaps meaning in our lives?

Man needs many things, not doubt but a relationship with God is top on the list. If you seek any of these other things first then a call to ministry could be misused.

Glorifying God is not in how many times we post a blog or in how many people that like a Facebook positing.

To glorify God means to give of oneself for the purposes of having HIM (God know) that HE is your most treasured gift no matter what.

Can you remember how good God is when pressure is mounting on all sides?

I am thankful I can and I am praying the same for all of you:-)

Reasons Why My Heart Sings-23

Each evening I read my sons’ a bible story.

Honestly, I think I enjoy them more than the kids!!!

God never fails to minister to that little girl in me as I read the stories for my sons’ spiritual growth:-)

 

Spending time with our children is precious indeed!

Living love ( Jesus Christ ) in a way to imprints itself upon the heart as treasured memories to be counted as more valuable than gold!

As a child I remember a neighbor that was a dear woman of GOD and she after working a long day at her place of employment would come home and take the time to sit down at her kitchen table and present snacks. But the icing on that cake is that this woman would take the time to share the bible-study with my best friend and I!

What impressed me so about this is the fact that this woman hardly knew me personally but opened up her heart and home to my friend and I!

I did not have the bible taught to me in my own home as a child! Which makes this act of kindness mean even more to me.

GOD always has a ram in the bush:-)

Bible study teachers are specially chosen by GOD!!

Mrs. Bolton I know that most likely you’re long gone from this side of life now and are directly in heaven worshiping GOD.

 

But that seed the God used you to plant into the soil of my life and heart is now very much bearing fruit:-)

I love you!!!

Isn’t HIS Throne beautiful, Mrs. Bolton?

Befitting such a magnificent KING of KINGS as our God!!!

 

Heavenly Father I want you to know that You fill me and fulfill me like nothing else can!

My gratitude list is going to be short but profoundly sweet this week.

I am so thankful being  that little girl sitting at Your feet just waiting for your next Word, smile, encouragement or even waiting for You to challenge me to reach for even more of You and Your wonders!

Thank you for knowing and reading my heart as if it were words dancing around on a piece of paper. You know me better than I know myself I look to You for all the answers.

I also want to share this poem that reminded me of some important things about GOD’s Promises!

 

What God Hath Promised -by Annie Johnson Flint

God hath not promised

Skies always blue,

Flower-strewn pathways

All our lives through.

God hath not promised

Sun without rain,

Joy without sorrow

Peace without pain.

But God hath promised

Strength for the day,

Rest for the labor,

Light for the way,

Grace for the trials,

Help from above,

Unfailing sympathy,

Undying Love.

 

 

 

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From a human perspective love feels right/ means being comforted and being understood emotionally.

God’s version of love requires us to put on the Whole Armor so that we can stand!

God takes into consideration our need to be comforted, understood, to have real and lasting stability, for unconditional love and opportunities to grow!

God does not waste one single moment of our life experiences. They all can be turned into divine teaching sessions!

God does not want you and I to bow to  fear AKA ( false evidence appearing real) .

In prayer we often ask God to divert our fears or we ask HIM to direct us around our fears.

Danger and fears are not always perceived as the same, by GOD.

What God  often does instead is to walk with us through our fears in very creative ways and HE provides us with the tools to over come them and place the enemy under our feet!

Good earthly fathers have many of these same qualities of helping their children do things that they did not think they were capable of achieving!

God’s way of nurturing is also to give us a deep sense of our real identity and sense of worth.

When we know our value and worth to HIM, then we can love ourselves although we are perfectly imperfect!

 

 

My heart sings HIS praises at this moment because…

 

205. I do not have to be perfect God’s strength is made perfect in my weaknesses! Through my cracks and breaks HIS glory can be seen by others that much more:-)

206.  I am so thankful for the fact that I continue to bear fruit in HIM.

207.  I don’t even mind and am thankful for the pruning that must take place constantly in my life so that I can continue to bear fruit into my old age!

208.  I am thankful being delivered from being B.U.S.Y (being under Satan yoke). God desires instead for me to BE more in HIM  not do more in an already impossible schedule.

209.  I am thankful for the God opening the eyes of my heart to see how perfectly HE has molded and made me to fulfill the unique calling that HE has placed on my life.

210. Thank you GOD for making me totally unique and irreplaceable no-one else can ‘snatch my value”  or take my place in your heart nor walk the path and reach souls exactly as You have crafted me to show YOU to this dying world.

211. Thank you, Heavenly Father for rescuing me from no-mans-land of self-service!

212. Thank you for the special gift promised to each of us that reads the book of revelation. Each time I have read it ( twice now) I have consciously been aware of being blessed but at this time I want to really focus in and thank you for the blessings that I have given that I have yet to perceive!

213.  Thank you, beloved Father for being the sweetener in my life that otherwise would be quite sour!

214. Lord, you’re so good and I am so thankful for YOUR heart, virtues and aspects of your character in each person, or situation you have ever provided to bless me  in this life! You’re not invisible to my heart, soul and spirit! You are everywhere! Thank you for for giving me the means ( method) to see and be with YOU in this life ( and beyond).

 

 

 

 

 

 

Reasons Why My Heart Sings 20

This message is for the saints not the aints!

When we love someone we pray for them, right?

I want to emphasize praying for and not against another child of God.

Being able to go before the Throne of GOD and offer prayers is one of the greatest gifts we’ve been offered as children in proper standing with The Most High God!

And this high privilege should never be abused to try to force your will over another or the Will of GOD.

Enter into His gates with thanksgiving enter into HIS  courts with praise!

Saints when we are angry with raw and unbridled emotion it is not the time to offer up prayers about the person we are angry with attempting to make ourselves feel more Godly ( acting as if we praying for our enemies).

In cases like this we wind up actually praying horribly against the person because our anger is in the drivers seat/ blinding us.

It would be better to ask GOD to help us with our anger and to understand what is fueling or motivating it.

Hypocrite first get the beam out of your own eye, then you can see your brother/sister more clearly!

No matter what we feel the other person has done to us, remember we are all sinners saved by the grace of GOD almighty!

So it is not up to us to try to speak our words over another life.

None of the other gifts given by the Holy Spirit or even the fruits of the Spirit work properly without Agape love.

For instance, acting with a lack of patience towards another child of God  can reveal a preoccupation with your needs over theirs but if the fruit of love is in operation in our lives then the fruit of God’s perfect love will gently correct your impatience.

Thus restoring the relational equilibrium.

Anger is a tricky emotion in that very often other issues, emotions, feelings and motivations hide behind it.

Pride ( thinking too highly of self) a need to be right commonly known as self righteousness, unresolved issues of self-worth that lend themselves strongly towards the expression of Jealousy, emotional issues those concerning abuse that involved shame and self loathing all can mask themselves behind a smoke screen of anger!

Can’t we all clearly see why our time spent before the throne would be best used in asking GOD to help us to unmask the real demons and culprits  behind why we are miserable and angry!

Lord, this week has been a hard one as far as lessons go. You have turned me inside-out and upside down/ showing me clearly what the enemy means to destroy me that You are bent on using every morsel for my good, benefit and ultimate growth.

I need to let you know that I know that I am your child and I am thankful and that I love you always especially so when I don’t get  what I want the way that I desire it.  I learn more about YOU and who I really am  in my trials than by serving a yes GOD.

You’re too good to pacify me!

I  accept that my full understanding of how You work is not necessary in order to offer you my full submission. I give that to you willingly because YOU are my GOD Jesus!!

Submission is not always filled with emotions of sublime pleasure sometimes it can be down right unsettling  to my emotions but YOU allow this to reinforce that I am not to  bow  to my emotions but to bow to and worship YOU only!

And there are even times that I am asked by YOU to let go of my place of being right for another child of God’s in need, but in cases as such I solely rely upon YOU for direction.

Your Spirit guides me not a list of rules!

I choose to stand with YOU Lord because YOU are the Truth and because I love you!

 

 

I am thankful for…

190. That you Lord do not abandon me in the thick of the fight!

191.  Thank you for teaching me that my faith in you is not blind or radical but that YOU Lord are all that I have to use in the pursuit of  seeing what is true, right and good.

192. Thank you for teaching me that carnal weapons never solve the problem.

193. Thank you for unmasking the real enemies and isolating the fight to the spiritual arena ( we wrestle not against flesh and blood but against powers, principalities, rulers of the darkness and wickedness in high place).

194.  Thank you for showing me that pride always kills but humility heals.

195. Thank you for the wisdom and love that you have placed  my elder brother in Christ Rev. William Boddie

196.  Thank you for preparing my heart and never allowing one in right standing with you to enter into any situation blindly.

197.  Thank you for second chances.

198. Thank you for the perfect work of  Agape Love.

199. And for its companion forgiveness.

200. Thank you for teaching me what prayer is and what it should never be used for.

201. Thank you for teaching me that there are no short-cuts in working with Your principles and precepts that each of us must pick up our cross and follow you daily.

202. Thank you Lord for emptying my heart of all the stuff that wants to crowd  You out and come between us.

203.  I am thankful for your seal of approval Lord that speaks life into my being!

204. Thank you for the reality that I am free in you Jesus.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Reasons Why My Heart Sings 19

When I was a child I remember each Wednesday or Friday ( depending on the year and grade level) being ‘show and tell’.

Do you remember those school day, school days, dear old golden rule days?

Now that I am a student/ disciple of Jesus Christ I’m back in school!

Feeling like a child, in that everything I visit and learn being fresh and new.

Christ has restored my capacity for pure wonder!!

Secretly I think HE kind of enjoys my awkwardness and utter dependence upon HIM ( wink)!

HE likes to use show and tell techniques in the teaching model HE employes with me.

AND.. I often feel a little like Alice In Wonderland falling down the rabbit hole ( wee) 🙂

Or even like Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz, watching Kansas go bye bye:-)

See, when we take trips like these, my only anchor is my relationship with The Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

Wanna make HIM smile, trust Him! As it really speaks deeply to HIS God-hood!

If you want to walk in The Spirit with GOD, then your going to have to turn in your perceptions for HIS.

You’re game I know and it all sounds simple enough, right?

But, seeing and looking at life through someone else eyes means letting go of your own sense of  reality…what is concrete, unchangeable and immutable.

Not so easy, right?

But, your life will be changed forever in the most profound easy and you’ll be ruined for walking through this life without the sacred peeking out from behind every experience:-)

This week beloved Father I want to make mention of  some of the things I am especially thankful for.

179. I am thankful for the fact that YOU are the most awesome teacher ( knowing what it means to administer a lesson holistically).

180.  After said lesson, thanks for dropping me back off  safely in Kansas!

181. Thank you for helping me to understand the deeper reasons behind the three-letter word… why

182. Thank you for revealing your self as the reason behind all other reasons.

183. Thank you for showing me that the only cure for idolatry is a life spent in constant worship of YOU!

184.  Thank you for controlling my thoughts so that they do not control me.

185. Thank you for the richness and depth of experiences that you give me to further show more aspects of Your glory:-)

186. Thank you for being The only one true GOD and the head of my life.

187.  Thank you for being my best friend ( sorry it took me so long to see this fact)!

188. Thank you for meeting me at the Cross and teaching me that YOU are bigger than all my problems and directing my thoughts back to YOU.

189. I crown you as King and ruler of my heart ( thank YOU Jesus for residing there)!

 

 

 

Reasons Why My Heart Sings 18

What creates a lop-sided Gospel?

Trying to dot all of my I’s and cross each of my T’s but failing to walk in love.

Self-loathing is not spiritual and does not create super-saints nor does it produce points for us in the here-after!

In order to walk in love we must first accept Gods love in the form of salvation and then allow the depths of this Agape love to flood our being ( body, mind, soul and spirit).

Once this occurs then we can love the UN- lovableness in ourselves and then as this love overflows our being we can extend it to others!

How?

Because we learn to look past flaws and see the need that lies underneath.

I can not always love each personality ( some of us have personality traits that are not functioning from a healthy space) but I can love each soul and want what is best for them:-)

We must minister the gospel to a dying world from a place inside  of  our hearts where our ” cup is running over”!

Praising/worshiping God is my hearts desire but I cannot even praise and worship GOD without the ability to love otherwise I’m just making noise and moving around without purpose and power!

The enemy’s greatest point of contention?

Your praise!

Saints, did you not know that it is always your praise of  The Most High God” that the enemy wants to steal?

Our praise of GOD brings forth senseless envy from the enemy, pointed in our direction to hurt and further challenge GOD.

We can even go about the business of  ministry and church ( big or small) the enemy does not mind this as long as there is not genuine praise of GOD going forth.

When one ministry or church  competes with another and one child of God is jealous of and competes with another it only serves to tear down the office of ministering and works of GOD on this earthly plane.

How can a kingdom divided against its self stand?

The Holy Spirit in me would never attack the Holy Spirit operating in you or in another ministry!

When this is going on the Holy Spirit is not the driver but instead it is a demonic or familiar spirit.

In Lucifer’s ( aka ) Satan‘s fall from heaven in Is 14: 13-14 you will find the 5 ” I Wills” highlighted below.

13       You said in your heart,
      ‘I will ascend to heaven;
above the stars of God
I will set my throne on high;
I will sit on the mount of assembly
in the far reaches of the north;
14       I will ascend above the heights of the clouds;
I will make myself like the Most High.’

Friends, do you see a sick, twisted and dark pattern in those five I wills?

Satan (covets) wants to be or take the place and identity of The Most High God!

When we want what another has or to take their place we are operating from the principles of the kingdom of darkness and not in agreement with the Christ ( or Holy Spirit).

Let me say it again, “the enemy can’t stand your true praise and worship  of GOD!”

Just like when we are ensnared by envy we can’t stand to see or hear of another receiving attention and praise we feel we deserve!

Remember, we must worship God in the Holiness of HIS  Spirit and in Truth!

We cannot posses or own the Holy Spirit or His gifts but we must surrender in love to HIS Ways, Will and Teachings!

Lord, here is my incense of gratitude, praise and worship in written form as You know each and every moment I have breathed Your name in love and adoration this past week:-)

168. Lord, I am thankful because your Holy Spirit lives within me and I can praise you from the depths of my soul!

169. I am thankful for when the enemy comes in like a flood YOU oh Lord raise up a standard!

170. I am thankful that I am YOURS and YOURS alone oh Lord!

171.  I am thankful that only YOU can tell me who I am and this flows from who’s I am.

172.  Thank you for teaching me that it is most important how we play the game. A superficial win at the cost of Your glory and my soul is NOT winning at all!

173.  Heavenly Father I am thankful for the process of consecration unto YOU Glorious One!

174.  I am thankful for Your showing and modeling in me that to win I must decrease as You oh Divine One increase!

175.  I am thankful for the fact that Life,love, grace and mercy got up when You rose on that third day.

176. I am thankful for the ministry of The Holy Spirit and may I love the truth and the Gospel more than the sound of my voice!

177. I am thankful for learning that being right is my standing with you; nothing more and nothing less!

178. I am thankful that You have chosen to carve Your image and likeness within the person known as Jennifer Boddie and that You can do anything but fail!

I submit to YOUR Holy Work in my being, life and affairs. All of my business is YOUR business!!

The Holy Bible: English Standard Version. 2001 (Is 14:12–21). Wheaton: Standard Bible Society.
      “How you are fallen from heaven,
      O Day Star, son of Dawn!
                  How you are cut down to the ground,
      you who laid the nations low!
            13       You said in your heart,
      ‘I will ascend to heaven;
above the stars of God
I will set my throne on high;
I will sit on the mount of assembly
in the far reaches of the north;
14       I will ascend above the heights of the clouds;
I will make myself like the Most High.’
            15       But you are brought down to Sheol,
      to the far reaches of the pit.
            16       Those who see you will stare at you
      and ponder over you:
                  ‘Is this the man who made the earth tremble,
      who shook kingdoms,
            17       who made the world like a desert
      and overthrew its cities,
      who did not let his prisoners go home?’
            18       All the kings of the nations lie in glory,
      each in his own tomb;
            19       but you are cast out, away from your grave,
      like a loathed branch,
                  clothed with the slain, those pierced by the sword,
      who go down to the stones of the pit,
      like a dead body trampled underfoot.
            20       You will not be joined with them in burial,
      because you have destroyed your land,
      you have slain your people.

                  “May the offspring of evildoers
      nevermore be named!
            21       Prepare slaughter for his sons
      because of the guilt of their fathers,
                  lest they rise and possess the earth,
      and fill the face of the world with cities.”

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